I will start with the good.....

wow! sure has been a while. so much crap has happened I dont even know where to start!

My nephews are fantastic! all three of them. being around any one of them makes me wanna get pregnat and have a baby...i then one will have a "poopsplosion" or get sick, and i change my mind. I guess that is just a clear sign that I am really not "ready". but i will be someday, i hope.

work is good, i just switched jobs and I feel less stressed about things for now.

life is good, Logan is good.

I started going to the gym. right now I call it "project swimsuit" but as Michelle pointed out that is a pretty lame title. so i will have to think up something like "project thunder bird!" but who knows.

so that is most of the good news! i will post the "less good" news later. i hate calling it "bad" news because it is what it is.

well i have to get back to work now.

PEACE!

I can Feel my top lip!

My top teeth have been liberated from their stainless steel prison! after 2 years and 3 months, my top braces are off!! yeah!! I can finally go to the mall on a weekday witout people thinking I'm skipping school....

need to keep the bottom ones on for a while to close up some gaps, but I dno't really care, you cant really see those ones!


hehehehehe...I am so happy!

my killer cat.....

So, here's a little story that doesn't end so happy.

I was at my second job last night and got home around 10:30pm. so I get ou tthe car abd I am greeted by Chupa, I pick her right up because I really didn't want to play the chase me into the house game, I was tired. I look over because I hear penelope's bell, and she has something inher mouth, and I am like, "oh, fantastic" being tired, I went in the house and asked my loving husband to go get whatever it is away from her and bring her in. I follow him out a few minutes later to discover that what she has in her mouth is a baby bunny, and it;s still alive, and sqeeling.

My heart stopped. Logan looked at me because he knows my compacity for dealing with animals that are hurt ( I cried when I had to leave chupa at the vet for her tail wound) and he said " it's going to die" Hearing that, I freaked out and chased Penelope behind the house with the flashlight. I wacked her, and she dropped it and took off. Logan caught her and threw her inside only to come back out and find be holding the dying baby bunny in my hands, and near hysteria. He is so patient with me. He was just like "dear, there's nothing we can do" and then he shot down my attempt to bring it int he house. so I went across the street and went to put the bunny where I thouht his nest might be. he fought a little but calmed down , and sadly, by the time I put him down he was dead.

I was very sad. the only good thing about it is I know he wasn't laying outside all night dying. It was relatively quick, and he wasn;t eaten by a cat.

The circle of life blows. I love my cats, but I hate it when they bring me dead stuff. thankfully, they don't do it often. I wouldn't have been nearly as hysterical if the bunny was already dead.

I locked Penelope out of the bedroom and refused to pet her at all this morning. I know she's a cat, and doesn't understand why I am angry with her, but it made me feel better.

The weekend....

We had a pretty good weekend! very relaxing for the most part. We went to see "UP!" the new Pixar movine, it was awesome, as expected! then Saturday night we went to a party in Beaver Damms! crazy fun, lots and lots of J-E-L-L-O shots! woot woot!!

Sunday we went to the in-laws. I cleaned out the gagrage while Logan worked on his car. On the way home we saw this beautiful Australian Shepard get hit by a car. He just ran into the road, there was nothing we could do either. The jack ass that his him didn't even stop, Logan was so pissed, he caught up with him to get his plate number, not that it is really going to do anything, but he really should have stopped. Logan was so pissed off that he didnt stop. It's not like it was his fault, the dog darted out so fast, there is no way he would have been able to stop. We went back to give the plate number to the dogs owner like 5 minutes later and she was holding her dog, he was alredy gone. It was so sad, she just sat there crying holding her dog, I just about had a meltdown right along with her, and it wasn't even my dog! I felt so bad for her, and her three young boys that stood by and helplessly watched it happen. She said the dog just got spooked by the neighbors who were target shooting across the street and when she opened the door to go outside the dog just freaked out and darted out the door knocking her over. Poor puppy. at least he didn't really suffer much, or at least we can hope he didn't.

I swear if I ever hit someone's pet, I will never drive again, I feel bad if I hit a squirrel, I can;t imagine hitting someones cat or dog. and I deffinate can't see driving away, at least have the courtesy to stop, and see if the dog was okay, what if there was nobody outside? they would have just found there dead dog acrss the road? people are F***** up sopmetimes!

anyway. It was a good weekend over all. I did pretty bad with thw dieting though! we went to Friendly's for dinner on Friday and then the party saturday I ate a lot of junk, and then Sunday we went to ROn Don;s for lunch....thoses damn sqeezez are so good! but I am back on track today, I hope. It would be great to have weight loss again this week! this weight watchers thing really works for me. I think it's becasue if you really look at what you eat in a day and write it all down, it's scary!

It's been a while ....again

So I am a slacker when it comes to posting on this thing. But I am at work, it's the last week of the month and I don't have much to do today other than make a few phone calls and pack up some of the rap in my office becasue we are moving to a different building.

Work is...well.....okay I guess. I was offered a job with the state, btu I am not sure I wnat to take it. I haven't been formally offered the position becasue my background check hasn't been completed yet, I have to do that on Friday, but they can't tell me what shift it is. but I know it is not going to be Monday through friday and I know that it will not be first shift. I know some people out there would tell me to take the job in an instant, and I thought I would too but here are some pros and cons:

Pros
Benifits-good ones!
Pension
Better pay-fo sho!
hopefully room for advancement!


CONS
weekends
nights- for who knows how long. sure I could work my way up the ladder, but that could take YEARS people!
back to the bottom of the ladder.
Most likely would have to cancel vacation this year if they wanted me to start right away.

now I have some options. Because I only have an A.A.S. in Human Services, that limits my options with the state. but If I suck it up with this job for another 2 years or so and get my bachelors degree my opportunities with the state would increase big time, plus I would have 5 years experience with billing and what not, a valuable asset in deed. so I guess we will have to see what they offer.

They could throw a curve ball and offer me a part time position, and if it worked with my current schedule I could have the best of both. oy.......who knows, I guess I will have to go with the flow...I am a firm beleiver of "everything happens for a reason" so I am just going to let it happen you know?

On to better news. I joined weight watchers online today. I am so serious this time. I say it all the time, but Michelle ( yeah ) will be there to slap the cookies out my hands and hoe slap me if I try to go astray. and when I say "hoe slap" I mean I want her to hit with a garden tool.......hehehehe...Logan is suportive of it too, as long as it doesn't cost too much...lol....

so I want to loose weight and be healthy body and mind. we shall see...

opperation "penelope freedom"

so I haven't written in a while but I thought this story was "blog worthy"

And before I begin. The cat above only LOOKS sweet and innocent.....

The story begins on a lazy Sunday. I bunker down on the couch around 4pm for a nice nap. My husband lets the cats out and I sleep. I awake around 6:30 ( good nap) and see that Chupa is in, but Penelope is not, which is unusual as I am usually chasing Chupa down when it gets dark not my sweet Penelope. So it is starting to get later and later and colder and colder and I start to freak out a bit because I am worried about my little fur baby. I annoy my husband to the point where he walks up and down the road to insure she hasn't met the cruel fate of a cars tire. He can't find her and there is no sign of her. She has done this type of thing before but usually shows up around midnight. So we went to bed.

Not being able to relax, get up every 30 or so minutes to see if she has on the porch waiting to come in. No dice. So I sleep for like and hour and then the upstairs neighbor got home and I woke up to see if she was in the hallway, still no Penelope. Now even Logan is a bit worried, so he throws on his shoes and goes out to see if he can find my kitty. He is out there for about 20 minutes and he comes in. He calls me into the living room and informs me that he has found her, but he doesn't look happy. He tells me she is locked in the neighbors shed.......WHAT?? He said he heard her distinct meow.

She somehow got into the shed across the street. So we arm ourselves with a flashlight and head over there to free the cat. Mind you it is now 2 a.m. ,and we look like 2 robbers, and there is no one home at the house and question. So we look around the shed and there is no obvious entry point. I have no Idea how she got in there. I hear her sweet little meow and the bell on her collar, I am now determined to get her out. We go back in the house and try to call the police department to see if we can get someone to cut the lock on the door, but no one is on duty in out ho-boken town so we would have to call the Sheriffs department, not a chance in hell I am calling a Sheriff to save me cat from a shed. so I go over and try to free her myself.

needless to say, after some careful searching, I found a weak spot in the shed and pulled one of the panels back. She eventually found her way to the hole and was freed! sweet freedom! she jumped into my arms and dug her claws in hanging on for dear life. I was pissed that she had gotten into this mess in the first place, but happy to have my kitty safe and sound. we went inside and I gave her some canned food, and went to bed. She joined us moment later and was cuddled up in her normal fashion.

What an ordeal. I am glad my husband understands how much I love these stupid cats.

And just in case any of Penelope's friends read this...she's grounded for a while.

it's been a few weeks...

and life continues. it's been boring around here.....yeah right!

So last week my boss told me she has to cut my hours, ouch. I am supposed to do all me work in 35 hours a week, doesn't sound like a big deal, but it is. I hate my job! I took the state test yesterday and I think I aced it, it was a lot of common sense stuff. I have to wait 6WEEKS for my score, and then I can apply my score to other jobs that I see posted, hopefully I get a high one and get put at the top of the list, it would be nice. I really don't know how much longer I can do the job I have, i hate it more and more everyday. I feel bad that I might have to leave the consumers, but they will be left in good hands I am sure.

Logan is good. I love him very much. He has been supportive of all my hissy fits and declarations of hate for my job, I hope he knows how much that helped me. well, back to work....blah!!!

getting older.......

I feel better today. My tooth hurts, but until I decide to spend $800 to fix it, it will continue to hurt. I got a letter from Empire state Collage yesterday; I am officially enrolled in the May semester. Fun fun, Bachelors degree here I come! Of course in all my planning for this I did not think about the trip we are supposed to take out west at the end of June, and since I am guessing these semesters last more than a month, I am going to have to work something out, whether it be a wi-fi connection, or if I can get my work done before I go, who knows, but I don’t want to delay starting in May, I want to get this done and over with by the time we either build or buy a house. I want to have a good job and make decent money by the time we want to have kids. I will get it done, and so will Logan as soon as he decides what he wants to do with himself. He will find something that grabs his interest. Getting older blows……..

I feel like.....

CRAP!!!! my head hurts, my neck aches,a nd my throat and ears are all ick.....I thought I was just tired this morning but it would seem I am having my first sickness of the winter. that past few years I have somehow dodged a bullet, I haven't been all that sick, but I think it's headed towards an illness. I hope I can hold out for the weekend, I really don't want to use any sicktime, I need to save it up for out vacation this summer. Oy....

the super bowl SUCKED!! the cardinals blew it!!! they had it and they BLEW IT!! i always try to route for the underdogs, but they played the second half like pop warner players, it was ridiculous! and that last touchdown!! 3 GUYS CAN'T STOP ! FROM CATCHING THE BALL!! what the hell! oh well. football gets me all fired up....

other than that, it was a good weekend.

Twilight

...that sexy vampire....he has sucked me into the book...damn....

I have to say, I saw the movie before reading the book, normally I would try to avoid this, but I had no intention of liking the movie, let alone wanting to read the book, but here I sit AT WORK trying to keep my nose out of it!

props to the director of the movie. so far, I am about half way through, and the movie stayed pretty true to the book. of corse there are some scenes missing and what not, but the story is right on the mark. the intensisty between Edward and Bella is greater in the book than in the movie, and as you can imagine the movie had a few parts that were pretty cheezy. I beleive in one part Edward says to Bella "hang on spider monkey" seriously, I haven't gotten to that part in the book yet, but I pray that the author of this book did not write that in there and it is just a bizarre flourish of the movie director. But I digress.....

So I acctually have some work to do, so I will put down my book and start doing it *sigh*

time stamp on my blog

it's about 4 hours off, and I dont know how to fix it...heeeeellllppppppp!

what a week....

oy...what a week...so much crap, so little time.

So the weekend was good. I feel like I got nothing accomplished, but that's okay. I spent Sunday over at the in-law's watching my father in law come close to breaking his neck several times while working on a ladder in the gagrage. my suggestion is that he never be allowed to do work on a ladder by himself, he is just crazy sometimes! I also pulled apart my motorcycle, only to find it is in much worse condition that I thought, but oh well. maybee we will rebuild it, maybee not.

The work week was the same as always, busy but not too busy. I still don't like my job, but when I acctually have things to get done, I am okay with it and I don't dwell as much on how much I would rather be stabbing myself in the eye with a dull pencil than work here one more minute, but since the lottery ticket I bought for last nights drawing didn't pan out, I will trudge on...

I worked at CARS last night, what a bunch of fools! half the people in there just don't have a clue. they are 18, 19,20 years old and they think they have life figured out, even though they are in a rehab, they "know what's best" for them....morrons....

The Yellow festiva is being considered a "total loss" by the insurance company because it will probobly take moer money to fix it that the damn thing is worth, bummer...

But alas, I have a (hopefully) fun and busy weekend ahead of me:

Friday: work...blah! but then we get to go see the Jackles play in Elmira nd we have a box (thanks steph and Jimmy!)

Saturday: Shopping extravaganza with Michelle! even if it is groceries...shopping is shopping..it's very theraputic i think! and then maybee do the mounds of laundry that need to get done!

Sunday: SUPERBOWL!!!!! although this is a bit depressing for me because it means football is over and my Sundays now have no meaning (Sorry Jesus) I at least get to go hang out with friends and watch the Cardinals womp the steelers ( here's hoping anyway!)

and that should just about tucker me out for the weekend. yippee....I think I might need to invest in some red bull!!!

blah blah blah...

well another long boring day at work is over. yeah! 2 days down 3 to go. I watched Obama's speach today, it was good, he is a very good speasker. I am glad today is finally here, not because we have a new president ( not that thats a bad thing) but I AM SO SICK OF HEARING ABOUT IT!! I mean come on! I don;t care what Michelle Obama wore to the innaguration....I really don't, but anyway, hopefully the country is headd in a good direction.

I feel like I am stuck in a rut. I hate my job, but there is no jobs out there, so I really have no choice but to stay with this one. I am trying so hard to lose weight, and I am just not moving the scale. I guess it's both good and bad, I am not losing weight, but dammit I'm not gaining any either. I am not having a baby anytime soon, we aren't buying a house, I feel like my life is just standing still, everything we want to do seem so far in the future. I know, I know, time will fly by faster than I think, but I just feel restless.

OY! I am so glad today is over. I am off to get the husband, go to the gym, and then figure out what to have for dinner, because I forgot to take out the chicken...damn

P.S. the post times on my blog are way off, I am not sure how to fix it, but I assure you it is not noon.

I hate Mondays....

I really do. I just hate coming back to work. we were up late last night. Between the playoffs being on ( go Arizona!) and Logan's long lost cousin ( ?) coming to visit, we just ended up going to bed around mid night. but I still managed to drag my ass out of bed at 6:30 am.

I am making and effort to drink more water durring the day. I am doing 1 32oz jug of crystal light and alternating it with plain old water. I hate it because it makes me have to pee every five minutes, but it is worrth it I guess. I know a lot of it is water weight, but weight is weight. Remember my little "I am goign to lose 10 pound by valentines day" rant, well I am down 2 so far...go me! Now if I hopefully continue to go to the gym and drink water, and live in my junkfood-less house, I should get htere.

Here's hoping!

P.S. Michelle, thanks for reccomending the bakerella and cakewrecks blogs...HI-Larious! I would flip the hell out if my wedding cake showed up looking like one of those!

Another day, another dollar...

I just had my interview for the management position I wanted. it went well I think. lasted about an hour, there were jokes, there was conversation, it was a good thing.

I really hope I am taken seriously for this position. we will see. unfortunately I wont even know if I am getting a second interview until she interviews all the external applicants, which could take a few weeks. ajdksdgfkjsdf;ajkshdf....I hate waiting.

In other news, I really don't feel like going to the gym tonight. I mean I REALLY DON'T FEEL LIKE IT! but i know if I don't Logan will give me that dissapproving look he does, and I will feel the guilt everytime I go to eat anything. I don't think he looks at me like this on purpose. But he's the one that has to deal with all my "I am a fat ugly cow" comments and deal with the tears when I have what I like to call a "weight breakdown" you know, when you go to put on an outfit you used to where all the time and now it looks like you trying to squeeze yourself into something about 5 sizes to small. It sucks. And I know he wants me to be happy and healthy. He tells me all the time he loves me the way I am, but if I don't like it than it needs to change. That man of mine is so full of wisdom.....

I would like to loose some weight and buy something new to wear for Valentines day. that gives me roughly 4 weeks. hmmmmm.......i think I could drop a size or two in four weeks. I don't expect miracles, but I guess I could be trying harder. I VOW TO LOOSE AT LEAST 10 POUNDS BY VALETINES DAY DAMMIT!! ..or at least try like hell. There all who read this I now weigh 196 pounds. I will weigh 186 by V-Day.

Weight sucks...no...food sucks. why does everything have to taste so good?

not to state the obvious....

But it is freaking cold outside! geeze, enough all ready. My toes are numb while I sit here in my office. Today should be okay. It's Friday, so that's a good thing. I have an interview for a management position at work today. I have been preety much shafted twice by this department, so I really don't know why I bother, but we will see. Th last time I applied for assistant manager and got beat out by a guy that had been here like 2 months, I was pretty pissed, but oh well, what can you do? This time maybee things will be different. If not, I am seriously thinking I need to move on and find a different job. I know I know easier said than done, but luckily in my feild there is always a need.

Going to have lunch with the hubby today at Subway. I am preety upset, I only lost two pounds this week, and for once, I have acctually been trying really hard. I haven't gone out to eat and we have been eating healty at home. I don't get it. I hope I will get over this hurdle quick and start dropping the pounds.

That's all really. not much to report!

back to the salt mines...

well I took yesterday off from work, I just needed a day, that and I had a pretty wicked headache all day. but here I am getting so much work done...as you can tell....I just really hate my job. Not to mention I could do it in about 20 hrs a week not he 40 I spend trapped in my office, but oh well. I get paid to sit here and type blogs.

On a happy note, my friend here at work is getting married in late summer early fall! I love seeing people get married. especially when you can tell they belong together, and these two do. Thanks to my wedding ( thank you again Laura) I have all these examples of what she could do that won't cost her a fortune. I hope I don't overwhelm her, but times a ticking....

Other than that, not much going on. we are talking about moving out west again, I wish WE could make a disicion. I know what Logan wants, but even he is a little hesitant now that Jack is around and we have another neice/nephew on the way, It just doesn't seem like the time to go. But on the other hand, we should go now, and caom back in 2 or 3 years, that way we can say we did it and then start a family of our own, who knows. We are both just unhappy with the way things are here, mostly job related. And unless this job with the state goes through for me ( I take the test on 2/16) we will start more activly planning to go westward...oh boy. My mom would be sad, but she would be okay as long as I am happy, that's what she always tells me, and my father in law would probobly pack our stuff for us, he really wants us to go and experience it. we will see...we will see....we are planning a trip this summer to drive out there, you never know maybee I will find a good job out there on vacation, here's hoping.

Other than Than life is good!!

The weekend is here!

well it was a long week, but I made it! so this week at work was okay. I really don't like the job I am doing, but that's okay. I look at it this way: I have a job, so I am doing a lot better than most people right? right. So I spent Thursday night with Jack Attack! we sat, we played, he puked, it was a good time. His grandma is down this weekend, so he will be enjoying the comforts of all the grandma love he can handle!

We went bowling last night, I had a few drinks, and I beat Logan both games....yessssssss...that never happens really...and I was pretty buzzed the whole 2nd game.woot woot I ROCK! anywho...

Not much else going on really. at the gym yesterday there was this guy. yeah....he was a bit off kilter. he was on the treadmill doing like tai chi or something. he was walking backwards and stuff he was like a Jedi master on the treadmill. he was a little distracting, but whatever makes you happy. He didn't annoy me until he started like smacking the treadmill with karate chops everytime he took a step....thunk....thunk.....thunk..... he was weird, but very thin and in shape...maybee I should try some Jedi master aerobics?

Thank God it's Friday

everyone else is doing it, so why not?

Well, I guess I will be a sheep and start a blog of my own, I have always been a follower anyway. Well I hope my blog is as interseting as the other's I read. No real big stuff going on in my life right now, but sometimes stuff comes up. We will see. What I will prbobly write about the most is, my cats, and my husband, and the antics they both cause! They are pretty much the focus of my everyday life. My husband is a wonderful man, but like all humans, he has his daysm I am sure I will be writting about that. Both my cats think they are humans. so that always leads to some interesting stories.